Let's talk about PAIN..or Not.

Pain is not a fun subject. It isn't sexy or exciting and unless you are the one in pain it can actually be pretty boring.

Someone asks, "How are you?"

I reply, "I'm still hurting in my lower back and can barely sit upright due to muscle spasms and intense pain."

They reply, "So sorry you aren't feeling well."

Then they run before I get into more details. (wouldn't you run?)

OR...if they too have had back pain, they begin asking if I have used heat, used ice, gone to the doctor, if I have pain meds and one even asked if I had been hanging upside down.

"No, I haven't been hanging upside down, but thanks for asking."

Hurts just to think about it.

I am tired of hurting and my husband is tired of me hurting.

I am definately at the grumpy stage. Done with it and it aint' done yet. (did I mention that my husband is tired of me hurting?)

So for now, I will use ice, then heat, then ice, then heat and stretch and release and stretch and release, take pain medicine, take some more and maybe just maybe consider hanging upside down.

Now, you might still be wondering why there is a picture of a cowgirl on this blog about pain. Well, there isn't any reason, I just think she is cute and needed something cute and fun to help me forget the pain.

Because I love you

The Bucket List

Watching the movie, The Bucket List and keep thinking about a song we used to sing in grade school....There's A Whole In My Bucket.
Seems relevant.

Quote of the Day

Carter (from The Bucket List):"Is he insane?"
Matthew: "Depends."

Dreaming on an Ice Day

quote someone

High school, those are your prime suffering years.
You don't get better suffering than that.
Uncle Frank, Little Miss Sunshine

Out of Balance

I haven't been feeling well for a few weeks and finally got in to see my doctor. He listened to my symptoms of dizziness followed by nausea that would come upon me when I turned my head to the left and after doing a check up, diagnosed me with Vestibulitis (fancy word for vertigo). He said it was kind of like having a kidney stone in my ear... and apparently deep down in my inner ear, there is particle/s that are not where they should be and my brain sends messages that can't be understood so then my body responds with being out of balance which then causes the dizziness which then in turn causes the nausea. If you look it up it also talks about having a virus deep in the ear canal.
bored yet?
Now I have to do these weird head hanging over the bed exercises followed by sitting up really quickly. (trying to trick the ol ears and brain apparently into thinking everything is back in order)
really bored yet?
All that to say, it is really uncomfortable when your body is out of balance and this is just one of many ways my body is out of balance.
People often talk about finding that "balance" in their lives, and I am looking for that too. With weight gain and aging and old joints and ears out of whack... it really has hit home.
Even as I type this my head is spinning right round baby right round.... and I have to lean back and reposition my neck and wait it out.
As I spin, I finish (you are thanking God right now) and look forward to intentional living that will help with balance in most of the areas I have mentioned and I will keep doing the weird head thing so that I can help trick the ear thing so that I can get the dizziness thing to slow it down and get everything back in order. You know, that balance thing.