Quote of the Day

Carter (from The Bucket List):"Is he insane?"
Matthew: "Depends."

Dreaming on an Ice Day

quote someone

High school, those are your prime suffering years.
You don't get better suffering than that.
Uncle Frank, Little Miss Sunshine

Out of Balance

I haven't been feeling well for a few weeks and finally got in to see my doctor. He listened to my symptoms of dizziness followed by nausea that would come upon me when I turned my head to the left and after doing a check up, diagnosed me with Vestibulitis (fancy word for vertigo). He said it was kind of like having a kidney stone in my ear... and apparently deep down in my inner ear, there is particle/s that are not where they should be and my brain sends messages that can't be understood so then my body responds with being out of balance which then causes the dizziness which then in turn causes the nausea. If you look it up it also talks about having a virus deep in the ear canal.
bored yet?
Now I have to do these weird head hanging over the bed exercises followed by sitting up really quickly. (trying to trick the ol ears and brain apparently into thinking everything is back in order)
really bored yet?
All that to say, it is really uncomfortable when your body is out of balance and this is just one of many ways my body is out of balance.
People often talk about finding that "balance" in their lives, and I am looking for that too. With weight gain and aging and old joints and ears out of whack... it really has hit home.
Even as I type this my head is spinning right round baby right round.... and I have to lean back and reposition my neck and wait it out.
As I spin, I finish (you are thanking God right now) and look forward to intentional living that will help with balance in most of the areas I have mentioned and I will keep doing the weird head thing so that I can help trick the ear thing so that I can get the dizziness thing to slow it down and get everything back in order. You know, that balance thing.

2011 is Here

As you get older, you are VERY aware of how quickly your life is passing by. You start quoting to people about taking time to smell the roses and appreciating each day for all it's worth .....
yadda yadda yadda.
Sometimes you hide under the covers and hope it will slow down.
This year on my 54th birthday, I read Proverbs 31:25 about the 'noble woman', "she can laugh at the days to come" and decided to take it as my verse for the year.
Come on 2011. Bring it. I am choosing the more "noble" way.
While peeking out from under my covers, laughing hard,
and oh yeah, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Strolling Down Memory Lane

Holidays bring out the old photos and the memories.... this was me at age 5. Darling doesn't even begin to describe this.

Confession and Choosing

I am in a season of deliberate choosing.
Let's say Dean annoys the heck out of me.... and I get to choose my response. Do i smack him with some sarcasm or do i bless him with my words?
When someone balks at my controlling nature, do I inwardly begin to rage or do I let it go and really forget about it?
You would think that by the advanced age of ___, these attitudes would no longer be an issue, but instead I am being humbled daily with my tongue. It all goes back to the heart and if my tongue reflects my heart, then my heart needs some surgery.
So, Lord I am asking for daily help in controlling my tongue. I am asking for Holy Spirit intervention in my choosing deliberately to bless instead of curse.

I am deliberately choosing to love. LOVE. LOVE.
I want to be a good love-er.
amen